Honeymoon
New poem by Suzannah Showler.
Official advice: do not touch
the water. Here’s the berm,
and here’s you. That hungry,
broken line of overreach
is a phantom wave. If you
play tag with the ocean,
you will lose. We are
the sort to heed warnings:
from the safety zone we watch
the water stage small
uprisings, heaving gestures
of ocean that eat their own
advance. We kill days keeping
an eye on progress. Then drive,
slalom the highway doodled
in the margin of panoramas
one-upping each other the long
way down the coast. I daydream
your death, see how far
I can tether from the wheel,
letting the absence at the end
of our contract loom. I have
such sick driving skills. We are
committed. No biggie if you fall
asleep, we’ll still find our way
back to the view, front-row seats
furrowed into the shelled-out
length of beach. One night,
we stay so long the light leaves
us alone with the ocean making big
plans it reneges on, taking whole
generations of wannabe sand down
with it. The fog tapers in, and out
of the dark, that fragile upright
shadow, human and wavering,
flowing to the water. You’re it.